I just dropped this particular bomb over at my online home,The Phoenix, so I figure I might as well expound on it here as well.
I've been thinking about this for awhile, but I just got up the nerve to talk to Mark about it a little bit last night. It's talking to myself about it that's really tough, though...
I think I want to get married. I have been privledged to be friends with some really great married people recently, and I'm coming to believe that marriage CAN be something other than what I've always believed it to be. I am coming to see why one might want to be married, and why I specifically might want to be married to Mark.
I feel like a complete sell-out loser for even considering the possible positives here. I have been railing against marriage for years. The fact that I'd even consider it if pressed, much less bring the subject up myself as something I might want to think about doing in the not-that-far-away future, is so...strange and surreal.
What the hell is happening to me?