You know that saying about true wisdom being knowing that you know nothing? Well, I think I'm getting there.
Things have been pretty riled up over at The Phoenix in recent days, and basically the conclusion I have come to is that everyone else is right and I am wrong. I know that sounds obnoxiously self-depricating, but I'm totally serious. I need to learn to fucking listen to people, because they often have things to tell me that I need to hear, whether I enjoy hearing them or not.
It was incredibly hubristic of me to think that I could start a space that would somehow be immune to all of the old battles and old bullshit. And it didn't work. And that makes me sad and it makes me feel defeated. Really, though, what it should make me feel is humble. Why the hell did I ever think I would be capable of this? I'm 24 years old, I'm white, I'm straight (well, I'm not, but you know what I mean)...what the fuck do I know about oppression? What the fuck do I know about anything, really?