So I failed at the writing every day thing on Day 3. Surprise! Wednesdays are rough, though, because my schedule changes and I'm not at work. Wednesdays might have to be blog day off.
I joined a gym yesterday. I didn't want to do it, because you have to make a 12-month commitment, but the fact is that I really, really need to get off my ass, and maybe being committed to giving them $50 of my money every month for 12 months will force me to do that. I hope so. My tentative plan is to go Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday right after work, for 45 minutes to an hour. I'm going to start with just cardio until I get some base level of fitness back, and then go from there. It's a great looking gym, with interesting classes and a really nice, low-stress atmosphere, Maybe I'll take up spinning. Probably not, but you never know.
For the past week my life has consisted pretty much of working and reading for school, with a lot of naps and some doctors appointments thrown in. I'm realizing that I need to work on my balance and plan things out a little bit better. It's important to me to do well in school, and I have to work, but I need to both do fun things and not shirk my responsibilities (I loaded the dishwasher last night for the first time in probably a week) as well. So I think it's time to make a schedule, where I figure out on the first day of my school week (Thursday, since my classes are on Wednesday) how much I need to do for school during the week and what that means I have to accomplish each day. It's no fun, but it has to be done. Hopefully between that and making time to exercise I will get a bit more comfortable.
I need to take a minute to sing the praises of Lexapro. I have had no side effects, and it's clear to me now, three or four weeks in to it, that it is working. My mood and energy level have improved tremendously, even though my stressors and allergies are getting worse. God bless antidepressants. Some asshole on the radio yesterday was talking about how they are all just happy pills and depression is just part of the human condition and we should just feel it and revel in it when it happens. Fuck him. I need to be able to get out of bed in the morning.
Comments (3)
Hey, there--sorry I've dropped off the face of the world lately. I'll be back soon, I promise... But what gym did you decide on, out of curiosity?
Posted by Scand79 | October 20, 2005 7:15 PM
Hey! I've been meaning to email you! I decided on Body Business. It's really a great gym, really close to home, and as long as I keep the membership for a year, it's no more expensive than the Y.
Posted by Grace | October 21, 2005 9:13 AM
I've heard speeches from many people about how "mental illness" is just what we say to marginalize people who are different, and medication is social control. Quite frankly, fuck that. Without medications, one of my best friends would likely be dead, and she didn't call me begging for the social control to stop. She called me begging for the pain to stop.
Posted by Skye | October 22, 2005 8:13 AM